So lots of times, like all the time, I have random thoughts. Tonight I am thinking about life and what the purpose of it all is. Deep, I know. Some days are good days, some days are bad days. And some weeks and months follow the same pattern. The bad days, weeks, and months have me thinking about what am I doing wrong. Am I not teaching or disciplining properly? Am I not focusing on the right things? Am I too busy doing nothing, to really see the something that I am missing? Why does it seem that I can't take my little brood anywhere without stress, complication, screaming, yelling, independence, sillyness, and unruly behavior? Why does everyone say, "they are just kids." Oh yeah, I don't see any of these other kids behaving that way, oh wait, maybe one or two out of the 80. I don't like the unorganization, the craziness, and the lack of CONTROL is driving my CRAZY.
Oh wait, that's it, I got it. I need to let go, relax, go with the flow, LAUGH for goodness sake. Now that's easy to say to someone other than me. Those words are not in my natural state of living.
Back to the thought of purpose of life. Why are we here? We are here to have experience. We are here to see if we will do all that our Father has asked us to do.
We are here to endure, to become smooth through the refiners fire, to learn, to grow, to have opposition.
We are also here to have joy, enlightenment, peace, satisfaction, love, fulfillment, and knowledge.
Some days, weeks, and months are like the first group, some are like the latter.
The hope, expectation, and faith of better things to come are what get me through every day, no matter what kind of day.
